Quietness, ASD and Imposter Syndrome
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Published by Herne on September 22, 2024
Good morning Wyld Folks, and a very blessed Equinox!
I have been quiet lately on Patreon and there have been a couple of reasons for this that I wanted to share with you.
First and foremost, it has been very busy for both of us here with family visits and changes to my “day job”, plus we’ve both started new studies for work.
Secondly, and this is something I rarely talk about, but I feel should be much more openly discussed is my mental health.
It is well known that I have ASD (Autistic Spectrum Disorder) and that I struggle with high levels of anxiety and depression. What I have been struggling with for the last few years, and the main reason that Wyldwood has had such a bumpy couple of years, is Imposter Syndrome. It’s not entirely new to me, but it’s certainly taken over recently.
For those who haven’t heard of Imposter Syndrome, it is best described as a feeling of being fake, unworthiness, of not believing in one’s own accomplishments and a fear of being “found out”, when in fact everything you have done has been well received by your audience.
It’s certainly not a rare condition, and it’s also relatively short lived if people learn to manage it. And managing it is something that I am learning to do.
Essentially, as I look back at the 13 years of Wyldwood Radio, I see myself as a bit of a failure, despite building a small, university project up into what was once the largest Pagan radio station on the planet. I look at my work as substandard, boring and worthless, despite many wonderful comments.
it is further compounded by the proliferation of new stations and the horrendous struggle to stay on top with social media, SEO etc etc etc.
This isn’t something that anyone can help with, it’s down to me, and I may start sharing my journey here.
Anyway, I wanted to post something so that you didn’t think I had disappeared and to try to give a brief explanation of the reasons.
I wish you all a blessed equinox. May we all take this moment of balance between light and dark to embrace the beauty of both, and within ourselves. Let us all see the value and wonder in our nature.
Bright Blessings,
Herne /|
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